Thoughts about Bumps and Guilt

Guilt is something that comes naturally to me!!! Even as a child, if I misbehaved at school and my teacher didn't catch me..... I would turn myself in to my teacher!!!! As previously mentioned work in recent past has been pure heck. A change in pay, assignment, long commute, new coworkers, etc. While there were moments of, "Next time I'll do this differently....." Much of what led up to the changes was beyond my control.

When things have gone wrong in life, I tend to blame myself first! What I could have done differently, how I could have (supposedly) avoided it, what I did to bring it upon myself, etc. While it has differently gotten better over the years, to some degree it is still there! Recently through various conversations with those close to me, thoughts/pondering, reading, etc, I have learned a few things. Important things.

For example, when trying to reach your goals, pursue your dreams, work hard, etc. There WILL be challenges. BUT it doesn't automatically mean that I am completely at fault, brought it all upon myself, etc. It is part of living life, being human, etc. It could be different if I were content to just "chill" in life, let whatever happens, happen, stay where I'm at, etc. But as hard as the bumps in life can be.... I think life would be MUCH less satisfying and more boring without the bumps! As the saying goes, "You can't have a rose without some thorns!"

These are lessons I hope to remember and apply often in the future.